I'm in the library computer lab again. What a strange place. The only thing you hear are keys being hit and breathing. I sort of feel... like a lab rat. Push button, get reward, push button, get reward - only now the reward isn't a pellet of food but a new email.

This morning I went to the UW touchdown, where they revealed how much they raised from the campaign. I went with two other former staff members. It was nice to see them again. Afterwards, we all went out for lunch with the current staff, and some of the volunteers. It was weird to be eating lunch with several people who have either laid me off from jobs, or have rejected me from interviews. I must say, being back, especially today, has not been good for my self confidence. As I was well aware of before moving, I've gone from big fish/small pond to small fish/big pond. So, what do I do? Well, I try to become a big fish, I guess. During lunch, I began to think if I had it... that intagible quality that I see in some of the people around - people I respect. What is that quality? Leadership? Chutzpa? Experience?